While I am thankful to be pregnant with twins, it has been a very different road than when I was pregnant with just one (DS). These girls have been kicking my ass. I guess since my DS was born via c-section, all of my lower abdominal muscles are invisible, because it honestly feels like one of the girls is hanging out of my vagina. I am thankful that my cervix is good, but there’s a lot of pressure at the bottom of my stomach. I can’t stand for long periods of time anymore, nor can I walk. It is all for the greater good.
I was definitely shocked when the nurse told me that I was having two girls. This whole time I just knew at least one of the babies would be a boy, but nope they both have girl parts. It just makes me wonder if both of the blasts attached separately and we have fraternal twins, OR if one blast didn’t attach and the other blast split in two creating identical twins…I guess we won’t really know until they get here.
This time around, since my son is almost two, I was thinking about having just a diaper party instead of a baby shower. I am extremely exhausted and I just don’t think I will have enough energy to fully give to a full baby shower. Plus, there are some really great discount stores and retail stores near me, so I feel like I can handle getting the clothes, and baby items myself… but then again that brings me to my next thought…
During my last pregnancy I left my job, tried staying at home, but financially we just couldn’t swing it after my husband got laid off from his job. It was back to work for me, and a new job transition for him. This time around I am not so sure what is going to happen to me work wise. I just started working at another local college, so once the babies get here I will once again have no FMLA protection. My new job also doesn’t offer short term disability, so even if my bosses do work some type of leave plan out with me, it will be unpaid. Going from a family of three, to five, on one salary terrifies me. I am not sure how it will all work. I want to be with my babies so bad, but I also want to be able to provide for them as well. I have tried so many work from home jobs, and I just hate being on the phones with a passion. I wish I could go part time with my current job, but I won’t hold my breath either. There just has to be a way to find a good balance.
My son just recently turned 2, so I will have 3 children 2 and under. While I am fortunate to have my mother and grandmother who are both retired… I really would like to raise them *my way* with their assistance.
I have been thinking of so many master plans to try to make extra money to be able to stay home for at least 6 months to a year, but I am slowly coming to the realization that my dreams may not become a reality.
If there are any moms working from home, non phones, please share your job roles with me. If there are any moms out there trying to conceive, please hang in there! Sending positive vibes and baby dust to all.